so who remembers thehmangel? and that I kind of spoke my mind a bit on it? a bit too much I might add.
but i'm okay now guys. not perfect but i'm getting some help off people on twitter so everything's okay.
anyway. this isn't about me. it's about you.
now today I kind of.. what's the word. broke down.
I promised myself that the moment I was home alone, i'd commit.
However. I made that promise and then started talking to two girls which helped me I suppose.
so I sat there shaking and crying and I literally had no idea what to do.
do I get the pills or do I hang on for a bit longer?
now the thing was that these girls told me that it wasn't about killing myself. it was about killing my friends and family when I was gone. and obviously, my choice was that I didn't choose today to do it.
now, I want to look back and smile at that decision. since 'breaking down' I have had regretted the decision but also smiled at it.
the thing is, is that you need to make a decision that you will lik