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DON'T GIVE UP
hey:)
so who remembers thehmangel? and that I kind of spoke my mind a bit on it? a bit too much I might add.
but i'm okay now guys. not perfect but i'm getting some help off people on twitter so everything's okay.
anyway. this isn't about me. it's about you.
now today I kind of.. what's the word. broke down.
I promised myself that the moment I was home alone, i'd commit.
However. I made that promise and then started talking to two girls which helped me I suppose.
so I sat there shaking and crying and I literally had no idea what to do.
do I get the pills or do I hang on for a bit longer?
now the thing was that these girls told me that it wasn't about killing myself. it was about killing my friends and family when I was gone. and obviously, my choice was that I didn't choose today to do it.
now, I want to look back and smile at that decision. since 'breaking down' I have had regretted the decision but also smiled at it.
the thing is, is that you need to make a decision that you will lik
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omg sorry
i've been soo dead recently guys i'm sorry.
my family got a bit messed up for about 4 days, but it's okay now and we're getting a puppy so i've been helping out with like fixing the garrrrdennnn haha. plus it's summer so I want to use it wisely :-)
So I apologise for not being alive haha
I'll get drawing as soon as possible then i'll open up some more requests
oh and I saw batman last night. shit movie ok? ok
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Emi-a-soar
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Hey.
Ok so this is a rant idgaf who reads this I just need to ugh

Police are supposed to make you feel safe. Sure, if you're doing something wrong they will stop you, but all in all, they're supposed to be nice and make people in the community feel safe.

Not in my fucking town.

Some shit went down one day when I skipped school. Mind you, I've skipped before, but this time the school bugged and called the police. The police shows up at my friends house (because I was there), and her mom's boyfriend and cousin were smoking pot. So shit goes down, blah blah, but I eventually get out of the house and everything is good.

But it's not? The fucking police tapped my phone. So they can read my texts, they can hear my calls, they can find out where I am and such.
They show up wherever I go, stopping me and telling me to take out anything 'illegal' in my bag. They called child services on my parents multiple times, and they keep intruding in my fucking life. Chances are they will see this, and I really don't give a fuck.

I feel trapped. I'm constantly anxious and on edge. It isnt because I'm doing something wrong or illegal, because trust me, I'm not fucking up any more. I'm basically straightedge now except for cigarettes, but ill quit those eventually too. I'm anxious because I feel watched, it's eerie as fuck. And it's scary. At this rate, I'd honestly rather NOT call the police during an actual emergency. I don't feel safe around them, and I don't feel safe in my town. Fuck this.

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h0mi3 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday! :)
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h0mi3 Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I LOVE YOU ;A; lol how are you with all seriousness? How is life?
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h0mi3 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you're really pretty :3
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Emi-a-soar Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2013
Taaanks
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h0mi3 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
welcoommee :3
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rainbowl0llipop Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
emi emi emi emi emi emi emi emi emi emi emi











guess who
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Emi-a-soar Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2013
Omg <3 sorry I don't even go on dA anymore :c
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rainbowl0llipop Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
then how do i talk to you :cc
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Emi-a-soar Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
:c idk, i'm always on this app called Gifboom. I have an instagram and a facebook and shit too
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DemonCookies-killeh Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Student General Artist
HAPPY BIRFDEEYYYS
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